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Looking back over the year!

Today I tool the time to just sit down and look back at the past year in my life and I am going to be honest. It has been a great year! Starting with the birth of my beautiful daughter. To my fiancé moving in with me! I am just speechless about everything that has happen in my life. I finally got my business fully launched and am making money with it! Now here comes some more amazing news! I also became a uncle and my big sister got married! There has been so much happiness in the past year. Every day has been amazing from seeing my daughters first steps to hearing her first words. I can’t wait till she is one year old.   I also caught my biggest fish ever this year and also learned a whole new way of fishing. I live such a blessed life and I have my future wife and my beautiful daughter to thank for all the happiness in my life.

Thanks For Reading And Please Keep a Open Heart and Open Mind When Reading My Blog This is Based off my life and off the lives of friends and family. Parts of the blog post you just read may be fictional and not held to be true.

TEC2008

Behind Closed Doors!

Many times in my life I have been faced with things that I don’t know how to deal with. From the death of a family member, to the loose of a friend, to getting hurt by a crush. I have had a lot of crying happen behind closed doors. How ever not just sad things have happen behind closed doors. My life has been changed many times behind closed doors. The first and biggest change to my life was when I gave my life to Christ and became a believer. And The biggest thing that has ever happen to me is when I got the call that I am going to be a father, and now a have a beautiful daughter. There has been a lot of things that have happen behind closed doors from finding the girl of my dreams to getting my Halo 3 skills to the level they are. Now that I have found the girl of my dreams theres only one challenge getting and keeping her. This is one thing that I haven’t quite figured out how to do. And its been a long time with many ups and way to many downs. But with the girl of my dreams in my sights and I know were I want to go its time I come out from behind these closed doors. I am tired of looking the other way and hopping things turn out right. I am happy to say my life is finally getting to the point were I want it with the girl I want in it!

Thanks For Reading And Please Keep a Open Heart and Open Mind When Reading My Blog This is Based off my life and off the lives of friends and family. Parts of the blog post you just read may be fictional and not held to be true.

TEC2008

How to forget?

Many people come and go from my life as they move on with theres. My question is have they forgotten me? I know there have been a lot of people whom have come in to my life that I will never forget. I am talking about my friends, they have came from a variety of places. Social Network, School, Xbox Live, Other friends, and from meeting in public. By the time I call you a friend you have not only made a impact on my life but you have earned my trust which is not something easily earned anymore. To be my friend is not hard but you just have to be honest and truthful. At this point I can remember friends as far back as 4th grade, which is quite some time. I can not remember everything but there are a few whom have changed my life forever. When something happens to cause me to write a blog it seems to be the bad things that help me to look back on the good memories. This blog was inspired by someone whom I meet threw Xbox Live, Playing Halo 3. You wouldn’t think that someone clear across the country could have such an impact on your life till that time were they start to fade from your life. I would do anything to keep this person in my life however. After a few attempts to show I don’t want them to go they said good bye. I question how anyone could just up and stop talking to someone the care about I know I could never do that. Now I am going to remember those late night games of halo and the custom halo maps I made just for us to play around on while we talked and got to know each other. I am going to remember all the times we had laughing about the other teams getting so mad when I talked crap and most of all I am going to remember her. She was one of the coolest people I have ever meet and the best part was she is a believer of god. It is not to often that I find someone who will openly tell me almost anything about them. And its not to often I find someone I can play that much halo with. It got to the point were Halo 3 was my life. Now that I have looked back my heart and mind are some what at ease till I turn on my Xbox to find that there not online. And when I go to check for a new message just to find all of our past talks back and forth about things we were to shy to say out loud. This day ends another chapter in my life as another friend lives but today will not be the last day I think about them. There are still so many memories I have so many thoughts left unsaid and so many questions I never got to ask. I hope that one day I will have the chance to talk to her again and I hope one day we will get the chance to be friends again. Thanks for reading and if you have a friend that faded away on you why don’t you try and contact them again. Sometimes a simple message can restart a friendship that once was. Post your memories of friends or times you remember from hanging out, talking to, or playing a game with me or a friend.

Thanks For Reading And Please Keep a Open Heart and Open Mind When Reading My Blog This is Based off my life and off the lives of friends and family. Parts of the blog post you just read may be fictional and not held to be true.

TEC2008

Its not that easy!

I often hear people say  to live life with no regret but to be honest its not that easy. In the past year I have had way to much regret. At this point and time I can not got in to that much detail about my personal life. Now I can talk about some things that have happen to friends of mine. (Please note names and locations have been changed to protect my friends identity.) Lets talk about a small but common regret that most of us have. You walking threw your favorite store and you spot someone you find very attractive. Now some of us would be able to just walk up to the person and start talking to them. Not my friend they were in Meijer and saw this girl that they would describe as “Down Right Gorgeous” and they talk about what they would say to her and everything yet they do nothing. They next day Stan come over and were talking and they say to me “Dang I really wish I would of walked up and talked to that girl. ”  That to me is one of the most common forms of regret I have seen. Another one is doing something stupid which could be as simple as leaving in the middle of the night to something really bad like having sex with someone else’s girlfriend/boyfriend. And some of those things can carry a lot of weight when it comes to regret yet we still seem to do stupid or careless things and end up with regret. So I tried living my life with no regret and to live my life to the fullest and yet now I seem to be judged and condemned for what I have done. All I have to say is so far I am fairly happy with how my life is. However I have not been able to live a completely regret free life. Why? Well some things you regret because it wasn’t the right thing to do and others because now you will never know what could have happen. Now to over come some of these obstacles you just need to use your better judgement however not all are that easy to over come some times you need some extra courage and its really hard to not be shy. I find myself really shy when I just simple want to message someone. I just added someone I knew (not to well) back in middle school on my facebook and now I am to shy to message them. Whats up with that. I think part of it is because back in 8th grade I had a small crush on her That was a while ago why would it affect me now? I need to find a way to over come this shyness and I know I am not the only one with this issue. Please leave comments with ways you overcame being shy. Or things you can do so that your not as shy.

Thanks For Reading And Please Keep a Open Heart and Open Mind When Reading My Blog This is Based off my life and off the lives of friends and family. Parts of the blog post you just read my be fictional and not held to be true.

TEC2008

First Words

First words are often the hardest thing when it comes to meeting someone. I have a lot of friends however only a few are really good friends. I noticed that based on how I first act when meeting them. My closest friends I have I actually had something more than just “Hi” to say to them. I was at a church get together today and noticed someone whom was staring at my, at first I thought it was because I had my daughter. Then I later notice them staring again and this time I was by myself getting food. I wanted to go up and introduce myself but I didn’t know what to say. Not only that they were with family most of them time. The down side is now I regret not walking up and saying something. I have no idea if I will ever see this person again since today we were having a special celebration at the church and a lot of extra people there that normally are not there. Not only is it important what you say when meeting new friends but its even more important when meeting a significant other. I can think back to many times were I didn’t think threw what I was about to say and made a total fool out of my self. I had everything perfect how I looked who I was with and everything except what I was going to say. Needless to say that girl has not talked to me ever since that day. Now I have managed to get a girl. It took me till I was 17 to find someone. She is my first girlfriend and now were engaged. So now I am even more comfortable with talking to girls however I am still extremely she even when  I am just trying to be nice and talk to a girl. I find it hard to talk to a lot of people unless I have to. I attended a Career Technology Center(Joint Vocational School, JVS) and one thing I did while I was at then school was I lead tours to show new potential students what the school was about and when I was doing that I was never at a lose for words. I could talk before 5-50 people and yet when I wanted to talk to just one person to make a new friend I always end up at a lose for words. And now that I am happy and I have a girlfriend whom I love dearly yet when I see a girl whom I could easily walk up to and become friends with I end up at a lose for words. Do any of you have something you do to make it easier? Something you say every time you talk to someone new? Or have a situation about when you first started talking to someone? Give me your feed back and leave a comment on something that has happen to you.

Thanks For Reading And Please Keep a Open Heart and Open Mind When Reading My Blog This is Based off my life and off the lives of friends and family. Parts of the blog post you just read my be fictional and not held to be true.

TEC2008

Three Little Words.

Some of the most tossed around and used word can also be the most meaningful thing one can say. In my life I have found that these words are used at the greatest and worst times in my life. Were going to step back and take a look at loved ones lost. In my opinion one if the hardest times I have ever had to go threw. However when I said those three words I meant them from the heart. Tears were shed when saying those normally happy words, Yet some say them like they mean nothing at all. Another common time is just before or just after the most spectacular time in ones life. I know when I was at the hospital for the birth of my daughter I can honestly say I cried. Why because she is one who I love. When I hold her and see her looking up at me I know in my heart she loves me to. And if it was love that blessed me with the beautiful daughter that I have. Now for me in my life I find that those simple yet powerful words are not used very often. And for others they mite just be used to much. When I say I Love You, I don’t mean it in the same way as many other. To me it mean I deeply care about you, I would do anything for you, and can not see my life without you in it. Now for someone to impact my life so strongly that I love them is not easy infact aside from family I can only think of a handful of people I truly care about and even less that I love. I know when my life throws challenges at me it makes it harder for me to love people. At this point in time I can count four true friends, and I love everyone of those friends. I may not talk to them every day, week, or month but the friendship is so strong that if I go to them no matter what they are still there for me. Now These words can also be used for when you care about a person on a higher level and you share a very special relationship with them. I know finding a significant other is not always easy. Sometimes even seems more challenging then it my be worth. However once you experience the love between you and you significant other you will know no other love than that. I have seen love in many ways but still to me these words are sacred, and some of the most meaningful words I ever use. How do you feel about the words “I Love You?” Do you feel that they are over used? Leave some comments on your thoughts!

Thanks For Reading And Please Keep a Open Heart and Open Mind When Reading My Blog This is Based off my life and off the lives of friends and family.

TEC2008

Crushed By A Crush

In this world love is one of the greatest emotions expressed. However it is also the most hurtful. I am only 19 years old and at times in my life i have felt the true feelings of love.Weather it be from family or friends. I have also felt it in many was which I can not explain. One way is through having a crush on someone. Developing a crush on someone is almost uncontrollable and some times unexpected. I can still remember my first crush and to be honest it was the easiest time I ever had expressing how I felt. The only down side was it was simply a crush. I have made many friends and had many crushes and to me it seems like everyone of them hurts just as much as the other. I am a person who like to help and do for others before I will even think about myself. This however gives me insight to how others are affected by crushes that amount to nothing. I have seen friends fall and get totally devastated by a crush. The only thing i can do is talk to and offer my ear to those friends. It is never easy for them to understand why they are not liked by the person. And the hardest part is when your told a line of crap. I know in my relationship history there is one line i have heard way to many times. It may not have been said the same way but… it hurts every time. I know a lot of my friends have been told the same line too. I hate hearing “I don’t want to hurt our friendship.” To be honest all of the girls who were my friend and said that line are no longer friends of mine and I couldn’t tell you why. So though crushes can come out with a happy ending most of the time they hurt. I can however tell you that its not always bad. I am engaged to a girl who was a crush of mine over 3 years ago. With love you can find happiness in life but it can also bring sadness. I know almost everyone have been crushed by a crush and also found happiness from one. I ask you to share the good and bad experiences you have had with crushes. I know myself and the other members of the blog would enjoy your feedback.

Thanks For Reading And Please Keep a Open Heart and Open Mind When Reading My Blog This is Based off my life and off the lives of friends and family.

TEC2008

A fading friend. A growing pain.

I myself have seen many friends come and go and never have I really wanted any of them to go. I know just in the past month I lost a few good friends. And I could change it but it almost seems easier to just let them fade away. Were going to take a step back to my first day of 5th grade. Little did I know that this day was going to change my life. I was in the second seat of the last row. And behind me sat this girl and behind her sat a guy. So lets give some names to these people (Names Have Been Changed) the guys name is Jim, and the girls is Sam. Now on with the story as the days when by I started to become good friends with Jim. And we both started to have a crush on Sam. Now over time we learned that Sam had a twin sister named Sarah. As time when on I became good friends with all three of them. Now me and the twins got to the point were we hung out almost every day and this went on up threw my 8th grade year. When we moved on from middle school to high school something happen. And still to this day I am unsure of what happen. On the first day of 9th grade or freshmen year we were in the same home room. I was excited I would get to talk to and hang out with them some again. Little did I know that the friendship that was is no more. I walked up to Sam and said “Hi, How are you?” She didn’t even look at me. That whole day I was wondering what happen? What did I do? They were the first of many great friends that I lost. More recently I can count up to seven friends that I have lost over that past six months. And sadly most of them I don’t even know why I lost them. Have you ever lost a friend and don’t know why? Or do you have advice for those who have lost really good friends? Or are you one who I talked about in the Blog and you would like to get back in contact with me? Leave a comment!!! Even if you only have a few words to say!

Thanks For Reading And Please Keep a Open Heart and Open Mind When Reading My Blog This is Based off my life and off the lives of friends and family.

TEC2008

Edit: Ok, let me set a few things strait first of all if you were sent to this blog there was a reason! I felt that we used to be good friends and something happen. This is simply my way of saying I miss the friendship that was. I am not however saying that I want the friendship back. Things happen for a reason and I accept that. This is my way of getting closure on some friendships that I felt didn’t end well. This blog entry was wrote from my point of view and if you don’t agree with it please leave a comment or drop me a e-mail to tec2008@theteclife.com.

Apology: As for the two girls spacificly mentioned in this blog post I was not trying to make you sound like bad people. I was simply saying I thought we were really good friends. And was trying to express how important your friendship was to me. If for any reason you still have issues with this blog post please send a email to webmaster@theteclife.com and they will work with you to resolve any issues.

A distant freind. A potential lover.

Have you ever met a friend who is in a different state?

Someone you could easily see your self with?

Well lets think about this. I met someone over a social networking system and she is by far one of the coolest people I have ever met. The only problem is she is down in Alabama. What to do? You think about it over and over. How to go see her? Well then you keep talking and get really close to her and you both like each other and could see things working out between you to the only issue is that you do not know what she looks like outside of pictures. With the way all of the media shows guys meeting up with girls you start to wonder is it a cop that I have been talking to. Now its not easy to think that you have had something this big pulled over on you but could you take that chance? I am not very easily tricked but when it come to someone who I have only seen pictures of. Hmm… I think I could be tricked. However I like the girl a lot and would not mind being with her. All though I could easily find someone around here and be with them with in a hour or two. Would you be willing to travel 8 or maybe even 10 hours to see some one for only a few days? Same goes for them why should they trust you? Is it possible they think your a cop trying to catch you? So now there is no trust anymore with long distant relationships involving people you do not even know! With the way this world works all you can do is hope and pray that they are who they say they are. I know that its easy to get caught up with stuff and you end up not even seeing someone who maybe standing right next to you. Before you begin to give a relationship with someone across the country or even a state away take a good look around and make sure your not missing something. People often say “It’s better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.” I ask those people do you know what true love feels like because whether your the one ending it or you get it ended on you. You will alway have feelings for the person so if you think its better to have loved and lost your mistaken. I can tell you now I have loved and lost and do I think its better this way? No, not by any means especially if they were your first true love. I can tell you that no matter how hard you try to forget you first true love you never will. Since you won’t forget it you can always learn from it. What happen to cause it to go bad? Is it to late to fix things? Will things be like they used to be? I can not answer that for you however I can tell you that if you love and loose the one you love it will not be easy to truly love again. I am a man of many words who was made speechless when I lost my true love and now I am trying to pick myself back up and rebuild but am I doing it right? I have a friend who lives states away but should they just be a friend or are they really a potential lover? I am not sure in my mind I feel that they are but in my heart I almost feel a world of hurting coming when I loose not only a friend but a love that never even was real. I am not saying that a friend from another state is not a person you could end up dating and marrying but I am say take a good look around at what you really have before you go and throw everything in to a potential lover.

Thanks For Reading And Please Keep a Open Heart and Open Mind When Reading My Blog This is Based off my life and off the lives of friends and family.

TEC2008

People Say

I have always hated when people say that they understand what you going threw. No matter what it is. When I lost my grandfather people would tell my I understand what you going threw. That’s were there wrong the only person who can understand that is you. It you who has to deal with the emotion. Its your relationship no one knows how close you were to the loved one. And most of all everyone handles things different to some people they can just move on and others it seems like your world is crashing down around you. My advice is to never say I understand what your going threw because you don’t it not you who has the problem. Another thing that makes me mad when you loose a love one is when people say “its going to be ok.” Maybe its not ok or maybe you not ready to let go. Some people can deal with things easier than others. So its not going to be ok. People who want to do anything to comfort someone in a time of need like that is to simple listen and tell them that your sorry for there loss. Never and I mean never just say its going to be ok or that you understand what they are going threw. Everyone handles things different and to be honest I still have not completely couped with the loss of my grandfather. To all whom read this take it to heart and remember it for the next time someone you know looses someone they love.

TEC2008